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i love your ways.

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 22:22:17 GMT

    the Lord is testing and sifting hearts looking for those who will stand in the fire of sacrifice and give up all                 hopes, dreams and expectations at the cross to be known and found in the place of intimacy and devotion to                     Jesus.

I continually feel the question that draws my spirit into a deeper place of consecration: what am I willing to give up for the sake of knowing the surpassing beauty of Christ?

Where does the affections of my heart truly lie? Will I allow myself to be tried and tested? Will I stand in the fire of consecration? or back away in the longing and wanting of my flesh?

My life is not my own. I am consecrated unto His life.
       Psalm 51. For you do not delight in sacrifice, otherwise I would give it; you are not pleased with burnt offerings. The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart you will not despise.

             i surrender my will and my spirit to you.
    good, good shepherd come and lead my heart to your streams of everlasting waters.
       break my will and my independent heart that i might lean into your leading.

I believe in the power of intimacy with Jesus,
which resurrects my heart from the grave of hopelessness and self-loathing.

4/20

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 12:13:14 GMT

Yep...its that time of the year.

Don Wayne's birthday is today and we're all excited.

I am exhausted. I went to bed late, woke up at 5:40am - 6:20am to say goodbye to my dear friend rachel beauchamp who happened to be in town for a few days, and then got up at 7:11 in the a.m. to get ready to go to church and then found out i didn;t have to leave at close to eight but nine, meaning i could have had one more hour of precious sleep. Oh well, it's my life. And i like it. Although now i do feel like i need to be found curled up in a ball in some unpopulated corner of the prayer room caught up in some contemplative prayer..and prophetic dreaming. Just sayin.

So Laurie Carr's team is leading worship this beautiful sunday morning. I can only pray I don't fall asleep on stage. ...not because she's boring, mind you, but merely because im completely and utterly worn out.

In other good news: Katie Temple got back last night and I finally get to see her this morning after three very long weeks of waiting. Thank you Jesus.

Well...its nearing departure time and i think i may have a few minutes to grab a small bagel or yogurt cup before i leave for the hop. its my opportunity and i'm taking it.

Peace to every heart that needs it. And for the rest of you...may you be met by a hurricane of love on this gray and dreary sunday.

Another busy day in the life

Wed, 09 Apr 2008 15:05:51 GMT

Lots to do...two sets in the house of prayer....plenty of running around...not a whole lot of food.

Oh wednesday.

You will not defeat me.

Another Successful Sunday

Sun, 30 Mar 2008 23:57:44 GMT

Went to church, worshiped the good Lord. Had a small shred fest. Went to the Beauchamps with some friends, cooked meat. Ate meat. Threw around a football for a while (you should all be proud). Played some frisbee (once again, you should all be proud). And now here i sit at my home in Chatham, Illinois. Amber is watching veggie tales and kiley is crying because her legs gave out in an effort to run across the living room floor. Poor child. Kelly Beauchamp is sitting on our couch, sipping tea while chatting leisurely with Glory about something simply profound, i'm sure.

My heart is good, my body and brain however are suffering from exhaustion resulting in this shallow blog entry.

Sorry.

I feel like I want to sit and spend time writing something with depth and could actually, enjoy the profundity of it all, but i lack the energy. So...i guess this marks the end of the andrea marie carr, march 30th blog entry.

Except for one thing: For all of you out there that actually read this, which im sure ppretty sure consists of my faithful grandmother and a few passerby..ers.. Please continue to pray for finances for the IHOP team that is going to Israel. There's a few still that don't have money for plane tickets but feel they're supposed to go. So if you could, continue to keep that in your thoughts and prayers. ALSO: If anyone would like to give financial support of any kind for this ministry trip please dont hesitate to let me know. :) Everything counts... but im not gonna write on and try to convince you to give us your money, so...

Love and peace to all

--drea

Alright well...

Sun, 23 Mar 2008 04:20:17 GMT

I only have a few moments..im exhausted and i have church tomorrow morning, so i'll be brief. Lots has been happening. Been doing LOTS of sets in the house of prayer here in the spring patch...i'm actually going out to Israel, along with my dad, jadon and a few others from the IHOP, to help lead worship for a young adult worship festival in Jerusalem. Intense, i know. I still can;t fully wrap my mind around it. The lord is crazy good.

Here's a link to the site if ya'll want to read up on it more...which im sure you will:
http://www.fulfillmentfest.com/

But the family is doing good. Everyone's seems to be growing up, including Kiley, who is now practically running around the house with ease. The Lord is increasing our capacity to love him and worship him with all of our hearts, minds and souls. So you know...along with such increase comes some inevitable pain but the fruit is amazing and so worth all of the stretching and change.

I wish i had more time to write-- but i'll have to save it for another time. I know it's hard but please don't cry, everyone.

Love to all,

--andrea

Uhhhggg

Sat, 23 Feb 2008 16:54:26 GMT

This is the longest dang winter i've ever seen in my life. ..its so deceiving in the morning when the sun is streaming through my window making me feel happy and warm on the inside, then I get out of bed and realize underneath that random beam of sunshine there is a sky full of gray gloom. Do i sound bitter? Perhaps...just trying to match the bitter cold that overtakes everything here right now. Jeeze.

I am ready for warm weather again.

Tonight i'm going to a not-going-away party for one of my friends..who is..not going away. It should be delightful. Tomorrow my team and i are leading worship for the sunday morning service. Also should be delightful.

We're trying to put together a trip to fort mill for the end of march/beginning of april..it all depends on funds at this point. Umm..lets see what else... It's cold outside. My toes are actually freezing right now as I sit here. Oh well...as soon as summer rolls around i'll probably be dying of heat exhaustion and praying that winter will come again. Its a vicious cycle.

But other than that, my heart is good. Something new is happening in me that i can't quite put my finger on-- but thats ok. I'm learning to trust God even when I don't see the purpose for things. I don't always have to know exactly what it is the Lord is doing and my heart is content to stay there.

Jesus is the only savior for my heart.

Well...

Mon, 11 Feb 2008 21:07:35 GMT

it's been a while. Over the last few weeks many things have happened, some of which i can't remember, but we won't even worry about that.

Um...lets see.. I found out many things during this last fast. Such as: I like to eat--actually, I love it. Apparently when one doesn't eat for three weeks one tends to go down a pant size or two..in this case, three. I am addicted to cold turkey. And...Don Chaffer is ppprobably taking over the world.

Also: whatever you do, DON'T leave your purse unattended in the prayer room while homeless people are afoot. Especially don't leave it under the communion table. Apparently thats the first place they look. ...so be careful, you COULD get your last three dollars stolen. As well as your debit card. Oh and did i tell you that, according to my last bank statement, I have become a drug addict and have recently dropped hundreds (about $500, to be exact) at CVS and Walgreens pharmacies. Yeah.

ALSO:

Note to self: Don't go sledding with the cell phone in the back pocket again. It's bad news. The screen COULD shatter, leaving you feeling (among other things)completely vulnerable while blindly answering the phone. Just saying... But the good news is, i now have a new/old one that i am borrowing from a friend. And it's sweet. It has a cow inside of it and makes you hot chocolate on voice command.

Hmm, what else. Oh yes. I'm getting rocked by the Lord. And I love it. I love Him.

Love to all

--drea

Monday, January 14, 2008

Mon, 14 Jan 2008 01:57:44 GMT

Tomorrow is the beginning of a 21 day fast...im kind of excited for some reason. Maybe just the expectancy of my heart..? But then on the other hand..it sucks. Fasting isn't all that fun..so i don't know why im excited.

but uh..ill write more sometime when i have more brain power..

peace :)

oh the pain

Wed, 09 Jan 2008 05:42:59 GMT

Apparently you can sleep on your neck wrong. I found that out this morning when i woke up and could barely turn my head. Sharp pain...it feels like a billion tiny elephants are stampeding all over inside my neck with billions of tiny daggers attached to their feet. all im sayin...is that it hurts like hell.

I did the intercession meeting tonight..me and my broken neck...it went surprisingly well. And i'm pretty sure i looked like a robot wearing an invisible neck brace. I couldn't turn my head to give direction to the bass and drum player without awkwardly turning my whole body, like some kind of stone age robot.

anyways...im ending this day and going to bed.

Have a good night.

Thursday, January 03, 2008

Thu, 03 Jan 2008 22:33:01 GMT

I have the stomach flu.

My body is sick.

My heart is sick.

Everything hurts.